never forget where i comes from

i heard and i see alot people fight for their life. how difficult they live without job, money, family support or help.
but i also heard and i see alot of people just give up about their life because too tired to try again and again.

i heard and i see how many people so busy with their own life to have more money witout enjoy this life.
but i also heard and i see alot of people so enjoy this life without having alot of money.

alot of people said to me that "you're so blessed" or "you're so lucky" or "you're so happy without worry alot of thing". im so thanksful that im so blessed and im always happy.

ya i enjoy my life. im so blessed. if i compare with alot of people outside , i cant count my blessing from God. but it doesnt mean i never feel what people feel.

i used to crying everyday wihtout people know in my room only because i feel pity for my self.
i used to let people bully me without say anything.
i used to feel lonely, no friends and no family.
i used to fight my sickness alone.
i used to fail alot of things.
but the amazing is i always want to live. just never give up although sometimes i also dont know what i should do. Untill i found the everlasting love from Someone. He changes me everything. He gives me hopes, loves and faith to fight. not just accept what happen around us, but have to fight.

i used to eat instant mie everyday for 1 month.
i used to no money in my pocket in other country.
i used to put myself in dangerous.
i used to never enjoy what the normal girl should be enjoy for their youth life.
i used to sacrifice alot of my life to others.
but im happy. i feel what life is.

one day, i was angry. i just want freedom. i dont care people. its just too tired. but it just meaningless life after u think back awhile.

i experienced it. i learn from it. i study. i think it. and i learn it. and i study it. and i think it again. why im so tired. i dont want to live witout meaning. its too tired.
its too tired if live only for ourself or only for people.

"Loving God and Loving people as loving yourself.".. alot of time i heard this word. but now, i understand more. its make our life balance. never miss anypoint. simple but so powerful in life.

im thanks God what He had given to me. alot people feel im so blessed but i never forget where i comes from. i never forget where He take me out. i used to be a lost person.