Merry Christmas

alot of people busy with this christmas. everybody going to shopping. everybody busy to make plan for this christmas holiday. -_- but our company busy with some project T_T

i dont want to go shopping now.. its too tired n too crowded.. make me headache.. too many people going out n shopping.. T_T dont really like window shopping... or walk in mall.. maybe can say, i dont like mall.. haha xD if nothing to buy in mall, i try to not go mall n just walk around..

anyway, i wish merry christmast to everybody.. christmas is not about gift, present, shopping, holiday, sale, or anything what we see in advertising.. its about Him .. oh ya.. one of my friend sms something for me..
" There is nothing impossible with God, but there is one thing He cant do: " He cant stop loving you" :)
I wish merry chirstmas n happy new year to u all.. ^0^ remember that He loves us so much.. really love , love n love forever.. its eternity :)
have a greater year for next year.. :)

never forget where i comes from

i heard and i see alot people fight for their life. how difficult they live without job, money, family support or help.
but i also heard and i see alot of people just give up about their life because too tired to try again and again.

i heard and i see how many people so busy with their own life to have more money witout enjoy this life.
but i also heard and i see alot of people so enjoy this life without having alot of money.

alot of people said to me that "you're so blessed" or "you're so lucky" or "you're so happy without worry alot of thing". im so thanksful that im so blessed and im always happy.

ya i enjoy my life. im so blessed. if i compare with alot of people outside , i cant count my blessing from God. but it doesnt mean i never feel what people feel.

i used to crying everyday wihtout people know in my room only because i feel pity for my self.
i used to let people bully me without say anything.
i used to feel lonely, no friends and no family.
i used to fight my sickness alone.
i used to fail alot of things.
but the amazing is i always want to live. just never give up although sometimes i also dont know what i should do. Untill i found the everlasting love from Someone. He changes me everything. He gives me hopes, loves and faith to fight. not just accept what happen around us, but have to fight.

i used to eat instant mie everyday for 1 month.
i used to no money in my pocket in other country.
i used to put myself in dangerous.
i used to never enjoy what the normal girl should be enjoy for their youth life.
i used to sacrifice alot of my life to others.
but im happy. i feel what life is.

one day, i was angry. i just want freedom. i dont care people. its just too tired. but it just meaningless life after u think back awhile.

i experienced it. i learn from it. i study. i think it. and i learn it. and i study it. and i think it again. why im so tired. i dont want to live witout meaning. its too tired.
its too tired if live only for ourself or only for people.

"Loving God and Loving people as loving yourself.".. alot of time i heard this word. but now, i understand more. its make our life balance. never miss anypoint. simple but so powerful in life.

im thanks God what He had given to me. alot people feel im so blessed but i never forget where i comes from. i never forget where He take me out. i used to be a lost person.

new blog

hello... long time no post T_T.. cause quite busy with the job..
ya, just want to tell that i got new blog .. yeahhh xD heheh ... just visit
" www.handcreate.blogspot.com "

go there and find out what it is.. okk :)
have a enjoy day

i'm back again

yeahh... this month im going back to indonesia for holiday.. wahh.. nicee ^^ .. to relax, meet friends, n eat alot of food... ohh.. niceee... haha xD

yeahh.... flyy to indonesia

wahh.. got cute dog in my brother car

got new TV ^^

wahh.. i want to stay in indonesia if i got this room ><

but the reality is, i m back to my office to work again.. yeah... n see what i take.. its my table..><

Hard n Smart & Simple n Flexible

long time not blogging.. i have worked for almost 2 weeks.. sometimes, i feel i miss all my friends in malaysia.. ya.. hope got my friend can work same company with me.. xD

ya.. nvm.. im very happy ... its not bad u dont know others people in a new place.. i really enjoy ...

1. lost my spore phone card -- still got balance around 90 dollar i havent use it
2. lost my e-linz card (for transportation in spore) -- still got balance around 20 dollar TT_TT
3. my friend came to spore.. ^^ hehe
4. move to a new room.. i love my place now.. hehe
5. meet new friends in company

6. watch "the days" movie last week with my company..
my company did editing part for this movie.. so, they invited our company to watch in lauching day.. ya.. feel happy... hahah.. xD cause meet alot of people.. meet a directur, actors, producer, etc etc... n i feel the directur is a crazy and very friendly people.. hahah xD
ya.. my friend took photo with actor.. but.. i dont like it.. haha.. so not really care xD .. but im ok be friends with actor.. hahahha xD

7. i lost my boss artwork.. T_T hope i can find the artwork in book shop

8. got little bit fighting with my boss... hahaha of course fighting about project
of course i lost... but anyway, its my false.. but now, im really ok with my boss... my boss make alot of thing simple in maya n nice result.. simple n flexible.. ya, sometimes i dont really agree to make it so simple.. but some part, i will agree with my boss.. haha.. ya i need to learn to make it simple but nice... work Hard n work Smart.. make it simple n flexible

so far.. i love where i work now.. i want to learn editing movie from them... hahaha xD hope they let me touch the software ... hihi.... jiayou...

third week- small plant

title : life

reference : search in google

"paint in photoshop n just paint in small size canvas"

ya, what u see about this plant? small plant? normal plant? or just dont care? TT_TT
"i see it not only will be a big tree but it will be a big forest." by someone

yup its my concept. everything start by small thing.. same with our potential. everybody have a big n great potential in their hand.. somepeople just let the plant die in their hand cause feel useless.. but somebody can see the great potential in that plant, they try to grow that plant.

skill/potential is in your hand, just want to make it die or grow.
Its in your hand
^^ have a nice day :)

Second

DimSum

the best dim sum i have eaten... haha.. especially the siomay.. wahh so nice.. ><>

Botania Garden

here, some pictures.. ^^

1st

ya finally,im here .. haha.. XD i feel nothing have to worry... human think too much already.. aiyahh T_T haha.. finally i choose where i want to work.. n start working next month.. hahaha. XD

oh ya.. i have to put my artwork.. cause i promise to somebody already.. hehe..

ya, actually i got think others pic that i want to do.. but i left the picture in malaysia cause i took in there n use my friend camera to take.. aiyah.. >< >< .. so soryy... cause no time, i just use whatever i have.. haha.. n its so rush.. T+T feel bad to my friend.. n my friend ask me to put my painting, but i left my hardisk which i keep my file there, in malaysia.. aiyah.. so blur.. but i will upload it after i get my hardisk.. hahhaha

Fight

i feel scare to go there.. thats why i'm still here although i should be there already from yesterday.. but alot of reason i made to make me stay here.. but i know i have to go.. and now its the time

i feel i'm so brave, but actually i'm scare.. what should i do? its force me to go .. i need somebody beside me to give me strength and help.. and sometimes i wish they reject me.. how if i cant do.. how if i m really weak.. how ya.. who i can ask for help.. i really dont know.. nobody i know in there..

ya, i got share to some people.. i know they not really understand how its feel.. but they try to encourage me.. i really thanks to them.. ^^ and i know Somebody that i know, understand about my feeling... He know i can do it.. He know it.. He really know it.. i never lonely

ya, i will try .. i will do my best.. i know alot of people feel like what i feel.. im not think positive only but also think right.. i wont give up before i try.. ya.. gambateh everybody ^^.. fight fight

small room, small house, small country, but got big potential people

i remembered back the first time i came to this country (maybe around 10 years ago), i said to my self that i wont come to here to study, to work or to live here.. i really dont like it .. its really small country.. T_T

n now ive stay in this country for a week .. realize that is not only small country, but also small house.. i went to somebody house n i felt the house quite small but i like how they design their living room, make me feel nice.. ^^ .. n i just know that the house i visited is quite big for this country.. wow.. n only some people can get really2 big house.. i also found that the shooping mall here also is not big building... but here got alot of shooping mall.. haha..


but how tiny this country.. i wont scare if i get lost... its so easy to find the place i want.. n i wont confuss this country address... n how they build the apartment, make me "wow".. really never think it.. haha.. its also confinience in transportation.. so easy to go anywhere.. haha.. make me like this country now.. oh ya, forget 1 thing.. almost all mrt station, got library to go in.. its nice place to study or discuss something in there.. haha..


i feel this country really smart.. how they design their country really nice.. they really think further than others..


but i know alot of people stress out living in this country... ya, i havent start my working life, so i cant comment this thing.. haha.. :)

settle

i settle everything already in college.. :) haha.. still left 1 thing i have to do.. today, i really happy.. i can see audrie, cizi, selvi, n oli... hihi.. ^^ ..

oh ya.. i found 1 picture..

a nice day

wahh.. today i feel really better.. tq God.. hehhe.. :)

so, i'll go to college to take my certificate.. so have to give back my student card.. good bye.. T_T hikhiks

oh ya, i decide to lift malaysia faster 1 day ... haha.. so left 3 more days.. haha.. XD i'll meet alot of new friends there.. learn alot of thing .. try new food.. ya, i'll run forward.. :)

Copy Right short animation - qwek production

today.. i cant do alot of thing.. just want to sleep n sleep after eat medicine.. i have canceled all my plan T_T.. really need to take rest.. 5 more days in malaysia.. i got alot of plan already what i need to do before i go.. please, heal me, Lord >< .. ok, i try to do what i can do at home.. :)

here i upload my group Final Project in The one.. cause i promise to my friends already.. hehe

pampered

i dont want to sick.. i dont want to sick.. >< ... i miss home food ... i want to drink nice soup.. its so healty n so nice.. i miss my dad n mom.. i miss my home now.. cause nomarlly my mom take care alot when i was sick.. altough my mom sometimes force me to drink something that i really dont like it.. mamiii.. papiii... T_T haha.. so childish

i ate medicine + food + take rest + try to no touch water too much but drink alot of water.. hahha XD .. i'll leaving malaysia next week.. still alot of things have to settle n do... God, give me a strength

today, i edit some pic at home.. really tq to my sister that let me borrow her laptop.. if not, i dont know what i need to do again.. hehe ^^

try to get half monotone + half colourtone mood

try to give romantic + beauty + feminine mood

want to give natural happy feeling.. a big smile =D

her face looks a kid.. so just want give childish feeling XD

graduation photo

last saturday (12/7/08), i went to Nikko hotel at jalan ampang to take graduation photo.. so go as photographer.. hahha.. just kidding.. XD after that i try to edit photo.. but i feel still got alot of problem in my editing.. so go research to find how to edit photo as professional studio photography.. ya i found a good website to learn editing photography.. learn new staff/ same tool in photoshop..

today, i feel sick T_T.. cause get flu, headeache, n fever.. hahha but i'm still happy cause i learn something by editing pic.. ^^ hahhaa.. cause last 2 days, i feel i didnt do alot of thing.. T_T.. sleep alot.. maybe cause my body really tired after i go one whole day on saturday :) .. hehhe

who need a photographer, can call me.. haha.. XD

Ca-camera

yeahh.. finally i bought DSLR camera (7/7/08).. XD hukakaka.. happy ^^.. the first day i bought, i found some problem with the camera.. i thought its normal.. n then the second day, the colour is different with what i see T_T.. very different.. i thought its my setting camera problem.. i read the manual book and "basic" book to find the problem n solution.. i try n try untill midnight.. its getting better.. then the third day.. i shouted in outdoor.. its ok.. but in indoor (especially with low lighting), the colour change totally.. i think its camera problem..

ya finally i bring back to the shop i bought.. n they also dont know what the problem is.. so they send to canon company to check it out.. n the next day, the shop called that they will replace with a new camera.. wooo.. cause its really inside camera problem.. XD

ya.. start to explore more with the camera :).. n because the problem camera i bought first, made me read the "manual" n "basic photography" book.. so,i explore the basic alot.. haha.. not bad, get training.. hahah ;)

yee.. i think u all know what is the brand camera i bought.. hehe :p

just trying with the simple thing T_T

try to get the depth with manual setting.. i love the pic that can see the depth XD

i read the "basic" book for the camera i bought, n got alot of images i like it n i think its impossible to get it by using the camera i bought.. n i tried it to get it.. n yeahh.. i get it.. its really simple.. for this pic, i just use "auto" close up setting.. haha XD

i took alot of her photos T_T.. cause no model i can take already.. haha XD
i try to take black n white.. i feel not easy to take b/w pic.. ><

*not edit in photoshop*

books

yesterday going to kinokuniya.. i only bought 2 books.. actually want to buy alot of books T_T, but have to think bout money also.. hikhikss..
books.. ya i love it.. n i think everybody have to read books.. to get more knowledge.. we cant live more than our knowledge.. if we want be a sucess businessman, we have to learn from sucess busineman. now alot of people share their sucess be a businessman by writing books. so we can learn from books they write.

if u want to know how to drive car, u have to learn.. if u want to have a happy family... so have to learn also.. have to know how to be a happy family.. ya, everything from learning.. alot of people want to be a success businessman, have a happy family, want to be rich, etc; but lazy to learn.. dont want hardworking.. dont want to sacrifice.. they just have a big dream, but never take action.. so forever their dream never be reality..

never stop to learn. when u stop to learn, u stop to grow.
faster u learn, faster u grow.
more u learn, more u grow.
less u learn, less u grow.

here the books i bought

this book really good for colour combinations.. its simple but nice.. i quite weak in colour sense, so to improve it, i bought that book. ^^ nice nice.. hehe

mhh i want to make something different with t-shirt.. but want easy n simple.. so bought it. n inside really simple n easy, as i want.. heheh..

wahh.. so happy can bought books.. can go kinokuniya n see books.. ya happy happy..

stupid question get stupid answer T_T

ya, today i got interview as a compositor/ motion graphic.. mhh. its my second interview.. my first interview is in mfx post production for doing internship as compositor. its very fun interview. haha alot of funny question n answer happen .. XD n doing test for 30 minutes.. easy question but the answer not as easy as the question.. hahha XD thank God, i can do it.. :)

d = director ; j = me

beginning interview
d: are u ok with the working time that sometimes have to rush? (forgot what he said, but the point is like that)
j: ya. when i apply this job, i got think n consider the working time. n its ok for me.
d: do u have bf? (why alot of people ask this question? T_T)
j: no. why? is it difficult to find bf after i worked here? (hahhaha.. i just kidding with him XD.. cause i also not need the answer XD)
d: (he turn his head to outroom, n see his workers) mh.. i think here quite difficult to get. but in upstairs got alot.. (hahha.. upstairs got 1 company also)
j: (i cant stop to laugh) hahha.. i think i cant get it cause almost people upstairs i know...

haha.. really funny interview.. from start untill the end, i just laughing.. XD really stupid question n stupid answer..

middle of interview
d: are u local?
j: no. im from indonesia. is it difficult for international people to work in here? (i just asked for fun also.. haha XD.. i really like no care bout this interview.. T_T)
d: ohh no.. (with funny face like everything will be ok ^-*) u just need permit.. n im not really know about this, cause u're the first international people come to here.
j: good lah..
d: how bout company in indonesia?
j: ya got 1 or 2 really not bad. but not alot, thats why alot of big company in indonesia like to make their product advertising in others country.
d: ya. we also got did some product advertising from indonesia.
j: haha (i always laughing XD).. good... so next time if got indonesia client come here, i can talk with them. ;)
d: hahha.. ya n your english quite good. u can talk to client.
(i confused.. why they asked me to talk to client? is it they cant talk with client? ya, i know they talk in chinese n the english not really good. n the most i confused is why he said my english is quite good? never somebody say like that..n almost people said that my english really bad >,< .. so just one thing i can think is his english worse than me.. hahhaa.. but he speak quite well also.. maybe our english is same level.. haha )
j: hahha.. if compare with alot of people, i still have to learn more. (i just want to answer with no saying "i agree" or "i dissagree")

ending of interview
d: ok.. good.. i will contact u.. n i will discuss with my partner n asking about permit
j: hahh.. no test? ( i just kidding asking this question. cause i'm so happy cause thinking no test. haha XD)
d: no need, no need.. hahha
j: i thought got test ..
d: actually just simple test.. (he explain the test to me by drawing in paper)
j:haha.. (i just laughing after he told me the test.. cause i dont want any test T_T)
d: so, do u want do the test now?
j: haha.. (still laughing XD) .. can i bring home to do it?(hahha.. i cant think others answer already T_T)
d: haha (he laughing also T_T .. that time i think.. why i talk so much, if not, sure i have done my interview)
this one can finish in 15 minute..
j: haha.. ya.. if u know the way how to do it
d: its basic.
j: haha.. (still laughing *_*) i think i just remember all the difficult staff n forget all the basic. ( just make funny)
d: never mind. its just simple test.
j: or i just explain to u how to do it. so no need to do in computer
d: ok
(after i explain little bit)
d: i think better u do in computer
j: ( ohh noo.. maybe what i explain is wrong T_T)

he asked me to go another room for using computer. n i make fun with him with that test.. haha. ya, finally i done that test.. maybe around 30 minute i did it.. ya, actually can done in 15 minute XD
d: good.. u know how to do it.
j: hahhaa (still laughing.. my feeling better after that)
d: alot of people dont know this basic thing
j: haha (still laughing also.. luckily i have did quite alot basic thing in my church n my final proejct..)

conversation before i go
d: will u stay long in malaysia? cause we will apply the visa
j: ya (with smile XD).. (of course i cant say no.. i cant tell i just want to try interview in here)
d: so, u will try to find bf in malaysia.. n married here n stay here lo..
j: hahahah (really laugh alot).. i never think that.. hahaa XD
d: hahhaha.. ok, i'll contact u

i think i do alot of stupid things.. n do quite good job.. hhaha.. is it? :)

ShowCreate

6 type of asset

1. Spiritual Asset

mh.. ya.. im learning to grow this asset ^^

2. Soul Asset

- IQ, Knowledge, Character, Skill, Creativity

ya.. i also learn to shaper this asset.. so, not only be good or normal but excellence

3. Body Asset

mhh.. i quite weak in this asset.. haha.. sometimes, i work over or eat something not really healty, forget to eat or eat too much.. hahaha XD.. now, i try to stop doing something that not really important... want to eat home food T_T.. n control my self to eat less unhealty food ..

4. Network Asset

i never think that is also one of our asset.. n i never care about it.. im really weak in this one.. haha.. want to try to go out with friends, so not only at home.. n try to reply my friends sms or contact my friends .. cause i always think its not important.... haha..

5. Family Asset

ya.. i agree also that our family also is our asset..

6. Financial Asset

haha.. now, i've to earn my own money.. ><

the last day with - Kevin -

go to eat japanese food.. do u know where is it? ^^

he said that he dont like laugh in photo.. but it looks cute with small eyes in his face.. haha

never think that he's quite tall.. ><

how is it? who cutter? hahhaha

haha.. yesterday is my last day with kevin.. we go for whole day.. ya.. i think we'll meet again.. hehe XD .. u'll be a guy that people will call u as a blessing ^^

why so serious?

ya.. almost all my friends said that to me.. why im so serious? i never think that im serious.. maybe for me, its normal.. n i never compare to others.. mhh.. wait.. sometimes n somepeople i fell that they all too palyful already.. like never think something seriously.. ya.. maybe not because they're not serious.. just i'm too serious.. ya.. now i quite agree bout that..hahha XD

ya really.. i'll think something not important untill so detail.. but sometime, i will so blur for something that really important.. walah.. T_T .. i think i need somebody that always remember me to think what i need to think ..
but my mind cant stop to think.. always got something i can think.. thats why i like so much mathematic.. cause we dont need to remember alot of thing .. just formula.. but we have to think how to solve the question.. which formula can solve it.. ya.. it makes me want to think more n more..

n i also like to write something.. more i write, more i will think.. n more i get answer.. n more i know something.. maybe my ear n my brain quite weak.. quite difficult to understand what i hear.. i've to write in paper or in my mind, n then i'll analysis for it.. n then i'll understand.. haha.. walah.... no wonder people said that my brain looks like pentium 2.. have to upgrade faster.. haha.. see.. more i write, more i understand.. if just talk to me, maybe i wont understand.. but i'll remember. n maybe one day, i remember again, n i write it.. n analysis it.. n i'll accept what people say.. haha.. ohh nooo.. really my brain too slow.. T_T how to upgrade to pentium IV.. xD

alot of friends said that i'm a person can talk quite much... hahaa.. oh no.. actually i cant talk with alot of people.. only some topic i know, so i can talk.. but alot of thing i dont know.. now i agree that my brain is only pentium II .. never mind.. i will try to upgrade by meet alot of people.. haha.. ok. come back to our topic.. mh.. ya.. actually im not really like to talk.. if i want to talk something, i'll think alot of thing.. i have to think, what topic is suit to talk.. i have to think, what question is good to ask.. i have to think, how to continue it.. really alot.. if not, i will talk for 2 or 3 times only.. n then i will stop talking.. cause i dont know how to continue it or what i can say already.. ya.. its not easy for me to talk... but i know i have to to talk.. so, no choice.. have to learn.. n i think its really important to know how to talk.. haha

thats why sometimes i like to meet people like to talk alot.. cause i dont need to think the topic.. hahaha.. n i just answer what they're asking.. ya maybe make them boring.. haha. too bad.. ><

but i aslo like to joke.. haha.. mhh.. also with some people, i can talk alot.. i can joke n i can talk really alot.. haha.. but that one maybe we have to really close and open each others.. ya.. now, i got quite alot of friend i can talk... n i think we need friends that we can talk bout anything .. so we wont stress too much or we wont create something that called "new world" for only ourself.. n we also can open our mind..

n how many days already.. i talked to my friend (see below picture.. hehe XD) .. we talked alot of thing.. from joke untill serious topic.. haha.. n also i've to do something in my laptop.. so like she company me lo.. haha tq ya.. ^^

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" photographer n edit by juwita@create "

mhh for people like me.. like to think.. they will worry alot of thing that actually nothing.. cause they think too much... ya... i can think something too over.. but now.. my heart n my brain will give me "warning" if i think too much.. it's not good if it happen.. but i just think positive.. cause make me learn to stop to think something too over.. n to stop worry alot of think.. :) good lah.. hahhaha.. XD

anyway.. think something is not bad thing.. if our brain not use for thinking, then for what? but just have to know how to control n how to use it lah.. maybe my mind is my weakness.. but also my strength.. hehe so, i wont stop to think but i also will learn how to control .. hahaha

mh.. now i know more bout my self .. haha.. so i can improve again.. hehe ^^

others vs ourself

How we can take care others people if we cant take care ourself

How we can love others if we cant love ourself

How we can ask people to change if we cant change ourself

Everything start from ourself

after that, u can take care, love n advice others

love u ^^

more sunset pic :)

miss camera

now i dont have a digital camera T_T hikhikss.. cause got some problem, so have to give back to my sister to fix it... so sad.. i miss camera.. ><

so in portdickson, i used my friend digital camera... its really a nice digital camera that i have seen.. really good function as a digital camera.. but still SLR better than digital camera.. haha.. XD

when i can hold camera ><

Beautiful Sunset

here some photos i took n edit in PortDickson beach.. still got alot... ^^ hehehe

oh no.. i really cant stop to edit n edit.. want to know more n more bout it.. want to edit more n more.. want to take photo more n more.. i want more n more .. i think i've found my dream, my desire, my purpose.. i want to run for it.. i cant stop already cause i've fall in love for it.. ya.. :)